Hello. I'm about to type a lot, but I really hope at least someone reads it to give me some hope, advice, or any help at all. So about a year ago I experienced some extreme tailbone pain and I went to this Bone and Joint Clinic and they took some x-rays and saw some inflammation, but said it was related to me sitting in an awkward position on my tailbone too much. They gave me some anti-inflammatories and some pain killers and after a week, all the pain went away and I thought I was all done with that craziness. However, about a week ago I started feeling the same tailbone pain, so I went to a health center because the Bone and Joint place couldn't take me in for a few days and I wanted something for instant relief. The doctor told me that she thought I had the beginning stages of a pilonidal cyst and that I should go see a surgeon immediately to have a cyst removal surgery. You should know, I am quite possibly the biggest needle- and hospital-phobic in the universe, so the idea of having any type of surgery made me basically collapse. I was paralyzed with fear and called my mom who works at a hospital. In her attempt to calm me down, she got in contact with a doctor she knew and made me an appointment to get a second opinion. He also wrote me a prescription for some pain relievers so I could function until my appointment. I did tons of research, but all the pictures I found of pilonidal cysts are WAY worse than what I see on myself. I don't have any holes, and until today I haven't seen anything at all. It just feels sore and it's very painful to put pressure directly on my tailbone. I looked in the mirror about an hour ago and now I'm starting to see a bit of a lump there that just looks inflamed, but with no whiteness or anything. Does this mean it could be something else? Or is it just really deep? Or is it just the beginning stage and will get worse? I'm trying to prepare myself for my appointment, which I'm already going to be panicked beyond belief for. After much consideration, if they offer me surgery, I feel like it'd be my best choice because the idea of being awake while someone cuts me open to drain it sounds HORRENDOUS- especially after reading some stories on here where people weren't even on a painkiller during the process. I was also told that surgery would remove the entire thing and the problem would be done with forever. Why do so many people want to avoid the surgery? Is it really that bad? I think being put under anesthesia would be the easiest thing for me to go through because I don't have to be aware of anything that is happening so I can remain calm. What types of surgery are there? Is cleft lift the thing they are referring to by removing everything? My appointment to just be looked over is on Thursday. My college graduation is May 18th. I have no idea how bad surgery would be, but it would kill me if after all this time I couldn't even walk for my graduation. How long is recovery time usually? Any advice or answers to my very many questions? THANK YOU TO ANYONE WHO READ ALL OF THIS!