A few hours after I wake up it will be time for surgery.

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Finally getting the cleft lift tomorrow with Dr bascom. Laying here in bed trying to sleep but anxious and afraid of what's to come tomorrow. Afraid of the iv, also TMI but my period started two days ago so I'm going to be on it during surgery and that's freaking me out a ton, just another thing to add to it I guess. I dunno, I feel like right when its time for the iv to go in is when I'll just lose it. I'm not sure how to even express to them how afraid and nervous I am because I just go into this around people nervousness that keeps me from saying how I'm feeling really and I think it'll be like that right until that moment. I'm really bad with crying and basically my eyes tear up so fast I can't stop it and my throat tightens and I know that's going to happen so fast and I just feel really low. Im not supposed to have any food past midnight tonight and no liquid starting 4 hours before the surgery, so nothing to drink the 2 hour car ride there. I'm just not really sure how to handle my emotions right now and I just can't get out if this negative place in my head.
Just worrying and struggling with my thoughts.
 
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I had my cleft lift done in april of this year and it was the best decision. I have not thought about or worried about drainage, blood, checking my underwear, or dressing changes in months now and its amazing.

This is the beginning of the end of this stupid disease for you. You will not have to worry about many many months of unhealed open wounds and you made a great decision.
 
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I had my cleft lift done in april of this year and it was the best decision. I have not thought about or worried about drainage, blood, checking my underwear, or dressing changes in months now and its amazing.

This is the beginning of the end of this stupid disease for you. You will not have to worry about many many months of unhealed open wounds and you made a great decision.
Thank you so much, I needed to hear that this morning for sure. I'm glad everything is going so well for you! I hope it'll be the same for me. Thank you again.
 
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