I’m 33 year old male. Who has been living with IT for 15 years. I got IT when i was 18 after my father died. For me it has almost always been linked with high stress. I didn’t get the surgery because i didn’t want help(my famliy knew i had IT. IT made for some good jokes). I know IT’s here every day as you know. I icth my ass alot, but I’m a carpenter so ass icthing ok. I’m very active outdoors, ski,MotoX,snowmobleing,hikeing,hunting. IT was very active for the frist 5 years. IT made 4 holes as IT made IT’s way down. IT stop growing but drained about biweekly for aother 4 years. But for the last 6 years I see spoting and mentealy feel better knowing IT’s still open. I have wife a kids now and worry about the long trem afects, but don’t have the time for the recovery. I have a feeling I’ll have it forever. My Uncle had the surgery at age 18 he is now 72 never had problem that i know of. Good Luck i feel your pain.